Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Saturday, September 5, 2009
It is the single largest and significant source of learning in my life.
But, certain things..I just try again despite past disappointments, pains and perturbs. I can't help refraining from those.
You know what, I don't give a damn to those. I just listen and follow what my intuition says. They somehow already know what I really want in life.
This is for her!
பூக்காத செடியை மலர வைத்தாய்
அதை பறிக்காமல் ஏன் எனை காக்க வைத்தாய்?!
அவள் பற்றியதோ என் எண்ணங்களை
என் மனம் பற்றியது சில வண்ணங்களை
அவள் சொன்னதோ சில வார்த்தைகள்
என் மனம் கண்டறிந்தது பல அர்த்தங்கள்
இன்றா நாளையா என நான் யோசிக்க
ஆயிரம் மைல் தாண்டி நீ சுவாசிக்க
வருகிறேன் கலந்திட.. நீ கண் சிமிட்டிய உடன்
All is fair in love and war. Easy ending is by losing it.
Friday, June 5, 2009
This post talks about a recent experience of mine when I was travelling from Erode to Chennai on May 1, the Universal Labor Day. It was an unplanned trip and so got an unreserved ticket in a day train. If you had ever travelled in an unreserved coach on a holiday, you would better know how it is. You can neither sit nor stand in the same place for more than 45 min.
The combat of everyone’s eyes looking around for any gap, the discomfort of each place where you stand or sit, the densely crowded coach and the typical summer of Tamil Nadu had enough to make me repent for anything I did the whole day.
The train passed Salem junction and the time was around 9.15. I saw a hawker selling ‘vadas’ for 2 Rs a piece. Though I was not interested and not sure of its hygiene, I just thought I would buy as he was old and seemed like financially challenged.
‘Two vadas please’, and I gave him a 5 rupee coin. He served those in a paper and said that he would give the change later. About an hour later, he found me in my new place dozing in the upper berth and returned the one rupee.
On a retrospect of the past one hour:
I tasted that ‘vada’, it wasn’t good and so went near the toilet to find the trash bin and it wasn’t there. I crushed those in that paper and threw it out through the door. By this time, the hawker has moved to the next compartment. Just as I was looking out through the door and the train passing fast across the houses, trees and bushes along the side of track, a few thoughts maneuvered my mind leaving a few behind.
i) Will he return that rupee? Cha, how easily am cheated. It is definitely my ignorance that had led me here. I can even give 5 or 10 rupees to a disabled person, but I don’t want to be cheated by such a person. I am sure he won’t come back to this coach. But what inhibits me from approaching him and asking for that?
ii) My internal conscience gave me a gentle push to ‘step up’ ask him about the rupee. But may be the middle class mentality, which few Tamil cinema directors are good in cinematographing, stopped me from doing it. I just couldn’t imagine getting affronted when I ask him for the rupee.
iii) Be it whatever we study or contribute through work, we are good at delivering only in our comfort zone. The entities beyond our zone (or similar ones) are completely different and I had a strong feel that I don’t know much about those. There is nothing I can do and is this what they say ‘live with it’ attitude? Whatever, I have to move on and so is everybody.
I was thinking that I would forget this whole incident in a couple of hours and just moved to a seat in the upper berth. A short sleep was obvious, but the hawker’s search for me wasn’t so. He found and woke me up and returned that one rupee. I just gave a surprised look at him, and was wondering why I didn’t say thanks. Instead I told, ‘Vadas were good… Just add little more salt’. :)
Thanks for your time in reading my post. Today is World Environment Day. So try to Save Energy and our Environment. Our Planet needs us now.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
After a series of posts in regard to nostalgia, photos, pasanga and etc, i guess its time to (and i can) write something about the people of fairer sex and my familiarization with them.
Right from the teens to twenty five, I have (or was, not sure?) been quite evangelical in my doings, reactions, assertions and behavior altogether in stances of feminine presence, and of course not equally enthusiastic. :) But, all these for a cause? I don't know. May be to talk or impress or just to impart a feel or to get along or what not?
The people whom we have met and got acquainted all the way through our life can be categorized as gurus, friends, mentors, close friends, forever comrades and the list varies person to person. But, where do I categorize the women whom have influenced me for a short extent, say for an hour, a day or a month or a year and then go away with no trail left. If you are not getting at whom all i am stressing, just see below..
- 7G class la one year full ah en pakkathula ukaarntha ponnu...
- srini sir tuition ku red ladybird la vanthu en cycle pakkathula park pannuvaa.. (vice versa too)
- 10th padikuracha en kitta pesaamalae moraikkura antha ponnu.. (many times wondered wat i did nu.. but kaekka bayam thaan :) )
- college la 'unna paarthu thaan da siricha.. illa da nee irukkala... athaan sirichaa' types
- numerous 'love at first sight' category
Naan cycle vaangurathukku inspiration um oru ponnu thaan, bike la irunthu kizha vizhunthathukku karanamum oru ponnu thaan.
I suppose, now you all got whom i meant. Though, these group of girls have been for a shorter duration of my and not much of their influence into the future, those times were paramounted by them. Well, i feel it is not right to forget them completely or ignore too. Years later, when I get in touch them or when I just hear about them or see their profile in orkut and when I think more than twice to scrap her or not, those old moments into your mind and leave behind an unconscious smile on your face. (the trail?)
But why we do or get into this? The fascination about girls and short lived moments with them have indeed kept ourselves swinging between excited states. Well, for all my thoughts and questions, even if i don't find a point of reference in my circle, I do get in the internet world. Lets see what a few people who study these (i seriously can't understand their motivation) got to say.
Psychologist experts of the 90's suggest that Men and women can't be real friends and only sexual tension is to blamed which inevitably persists between any two red-blooded heterosexual beings. But this may hold valid in an era where women were at home and men at work. In the present urbanized life style, women are almost everywhere and imparting their prominence in areas where we never thought. They work with us, share social and sports interests. Starting from Winner vadivelu to Washington victory, women have their own opinion and interests.
But, does that imply men-women relationship can be a perfectly balanced and complement each other. It gets tricky if you ask me. Almost every Men-women relationships we see in drama, movies and stories winds up into romance. Indian cinema has its own influence too on us, which is a separate story. The transition and changes in life style, work place, internet, westernization and welcoming of love marriages in our society have definitely put me in inertia at particular time of cross-sex friendships at a mature age. Is it love or just friendship or platonic love? These questions struck my mind in the last couple of years, when I observed an exorbitant change in myself and when I got into cross-sex buddyhood with a few. The public eye and society put in some barriers for decision making, but only a few overcome those.
Though am not sure, how men-women friendships end up, but I can definitely say both benefit from this cross-sex buddyhood. I have learnt quite a few things, like what women value in a relationship, expectations and priorities from them. Its quite interesting and the surprise comes when I realize am completely wrong in understanding them. :)
Well, i hope you all think when am I concluding. I honestly don't know how to conclude. Though this post was inspired by Valentine's day and its association with a normal self-centered citizen, I couldn't put myself into a closed box. You please decide your 'right', 'wrong' ones and set the limits.
and btw a very timed one too.
I asked a few ppl, what plans on 'V' day and their thoughts on it.. (nothing intended to generalize)
Male Single: '$^£$^jdf74 662fgd'.. u guessed it rt.. rendu asingamaana kettaa vaarthaigal.
Female committed: 'onnum perusaa illa.. bore adikkum.. gift pannuvaan..'
Female engaged: 'for me, all days are V day rathna..' , a very frank and honest reply i would say..
Male married: 'wedding anniversary um V day um, elaam onnu thaan.. vidunga boss'
Male naive : 'aval nalam vazha enaalum en vazthukkal' :)
Male single: 'last v day ku enna pannaeno, athae thaan.. :) '
Enna kaetta, i would say 'still single... ready to mingle :) '
Neenga enna paneenga and what it means to you, pls do comment.. :)
thanks for your time too.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
appreciate your time for coming here. This post is just about a collage i have tried with some good pics of my friends.
This is my first collage i have ever tried.. in picassa. I can definitely say, this is a collage of memories. These photos were clicked at different places namely Erode, Mangalore, Palladam,Ooty,Munaar, Chennai and Mahabs.
just an attempt to give myself and this blog, a feel of sapidness. I would definitely say I am not good at these, but am sure i can make up to the 'OK' mark.. :)
குடை போல் விரிந்தது அவன் மனம்
மழையென மகிழ்ந்து நிழல் கொடுத்தான்
புயலுக்கு ஒதுங்கினாள் என அறியாமலே!!
அவன் பார்வையை இவள் திருடினாள்
அவள் சீண்ட இவனும் சிணுங்கினான்
பல மாதமாய் இருவரும் நடிகர்கள்
நடப்பது நாடகம் என்று அறியாமலே!!
enna da kavithai mokka mathiri irukku nu azhuvureengalaa..
innum 2 days time kudunga.. itha vida sooper kavithai ready panraen.. :) :)
Inspiration: fellow bloggers, tamil cinema and the obvious ones.. :P